It’s been a short while, but in retrospect everything has been going well enough that I haven’t needed to update.
I guess that’s sort of a selfish thing to say.
Let me rephrase.
Girl & Boy is my second novel currently in works and it’s been an exciting and nerve-wrecking journey. It’s taken twice as long as my first novel, What’s A Year To Me?, and it’s safe to say it’s going to take longer.
I don’t mean that in a bad way, I intentionally delayed Girl & Boy (Originally due June 30th) because I have been in talks with publishing houses.
I believe in this story so much that I want to put everything into it. I want this book to come out with a bang, and I don’t want to rush it out just because I’m excited.
There have been moments when all I want to do is slam my head into the keyboard, eat profuse amounts of bad food and binge watch TV shows I’ve seen six hundred times.
The only thing I can do in those times is push through or wait for inspiration to strike, and that’s hard. It’s hard to determine which one I should do.
Maybe one day I’ll figure it out and I can write better because I’ll know how to handle it, it feels like I’m in the wild sometimes. But I can still guarantee that writing is getting done and that’s what really matters.
Hello! I hope everyone is well, it’s been another month since I was here but I feel this is a good way to keep everyone updated 🙂 A few amazing things happened this month, on the 10th my lovely debut book What’s A Year To Me? went into editing, which was both scary and exciting. In that time I did nothing but sulk because it was almost like my baby went to school! I was so happy for it! And then I got it back, and I feel as though I chose the best editor for the job! She was kind and heart warming (literally almost wanted to die when she said she liked it), but also incredibly critical and willing to kick my ass when something was wrong. I am still editing, I have Uni work that’s due soon so it’s been hard not to spend days and days on the book when I know I have the motivation to do so. And then! The highlight of my March was that I attended Readers and Writers Down Under, which was basically a convention for all Authors in Australia. Most of them were independent, and ALL of them were so approachable and kind. There were Panels, meetups, VIP dinners, awards, signings, and just so much awesome atmosphere. It really motivated me, I met up with my editor and a few other author friends that I’d seen before 🙂 I had such a great time meeting everyone, sharing my book with my editor, and also working on promotional material! I have never been so proud of my work as I am right now, and it’s not even out yet! Until next time, Jason.
Ever since I started having freak-outs about the book being printed I have been working non-stop on it, as anyone would usually do. I’ve edited and edited and edited again, added, deleted, fixed, etc.
I’m happy to say that it’s ready! BUT ready means hiring a professional editor! Exciting, right?
I feel like it’s ready for that, and I’m super excited to be looking for an editor in order to work on it more and eventually get it published!
Now, in terms of publishing I’m pretty heavily motivated to self-publish (after thinking about it for so long), I feel like I would be more comfortable in that regard, and have much more control over everything. I could always try for traditional publishing, but I feel like self-publishing is more my stance.
Anyway, I had a great weekend at the Supanova Convention here in Brisbane, I met some wonderful authors who gave me advice and tips, which in itself was well worth the $40 to get in just by networking myself, so I’m feeling really motivated to get the book out and I’m working on a second book already! Yay inspiration!
Anyway, just a small update, thank you all for your support!
P.S. I have a new official twitter for my writing, it’s @JasonFKendrick 😀
It’s a strange feeling, right? I’m meant to feel like this?
I couldn’t be happier to see this thing that was once just words on a word document come to life physically. It sounds stupid but I have devoted so much to this…thing…that seeing it on paper is surreal.
Currently, half of it is filled with sticky notes and highlighted words for grammar, but this is basically my final draft. I’m happy, it’s weird, IT’S JUST WEIRD! In a few weeks this thing that I created will be sent to publishers and I’ll be exploring options to get this thing, that IIIIIIIIII created, off the ground.
It might fail.
It might not even get off the ground to begin with.
But I created it…
As nervous as I was, I finally showed someone the first few chapters of my book.
My girlfriend is an incredible reader, so when I asked her to read it I told her to never hold back on its faults, and give me as much criticism as possible. This in turn led to some serious anxiety when she began reading it, I fidgeted and couldn’t stay still. I hadn’t shown anyone any of my work, so I had thoughts like:
What if everything I’ve done so far has been rubbish? What if it’s not even readable? What if I’ve been wasting my time?
Sure enough, she came out after 15 minutes (Yes, 87 pages/11 Chapters in 15 minutes) and had a lot of comments. We sat on our couch and she had some highlighted issues she shared with me and we began discussing them. I finally asked her, most importantly, if she liked it. Her answer?
My anxiety exploded, the flame that was in my stomach went out like a bucket of water on a candle. It settled me so much I got motivated to work for the rest of that day. She helped me in that 20 minute discussion more then I could ever help myself, or convince myself that my work was good.
Now, it’s not to say it’s happily ever after, I’m still very hard at work on the second half of the book and I will be for the next week or so. I hope to have the final draft done by the end of this week, or the week after.
I’ve been editing for about 4 days now, and so far it’s been going fine. There have been corrections made to fit in with the story, but more importantly it’s been giving me a fresh look at how the story really plays out, rather then seeing it in tunnel vision.
I’ve got to be honest, I’m terrified.
Today has been the only day where I literally got to working on the book, and thought to myself it’s not going to be good enough. It had been all going well until those thoughts hit me, I’m afraid. I’m afraid no one will like it and my efforts will be for nothing, I’m afraid the story will come across terribly and people will miss the point, I’m afraid I won’t be happy with it in the end.
This could just be my anxiety talking, previously I argued about adding some scenes in the first act to make the characters personality pop out more, and for some reason from then on everything just crashed.
Self-doubts, anxiety, and conflict with myself.
Perhaps this will all blow over, perhaps I just need to take a walk or exercise or go somewhere.